[before Dohalim realises what's happening, Mira's in front of him, holding onto him, kissing him. all he can do is gasp softly, but he doesn't move to kiss her back just yet.
instead, he reaches up to take Mira's shoulders, with every intention of pushing her away, but... he doesn't. no, instead, he pulls her closer to him, his hold almost desperate, as if she'll suddenly pull away]
[ For a few terrifying moments, she thinks he's going to push her away, reject her.
But then he pulls her close, and Mira lets out a small, relieved sound against his mouth. It's not her first kiss, but it's the first to make her feel like this. Dohalim's lips are soft and warm, and he holds her like if she pulls away, it'll break something in him. She doesn't pull away. She can't bring herself to. Instead, she slides her arms around his neck and relaxes against him, eyes sliding shut as she deepens it just a bit more. ]
[Dohalim watches Mira for a moment or two more, before letting his eyes slip closed, mostly in favour of stopping his eyes from burning as emotions are dredged up.
sliding his hands around to her back, Dohalim slowly leans back, gently pulling Mira along with him as he lays back down on his bed, careful not to break the kiss. he can feel her hair curtain his face, the short ends gently brushing against his face.
when they eventually do break, he looks up at her, breathing a little heavier as he tries to catch his breath]
[ She goes with him, heart pounding as she kisses him. It doesn't feel real; Mira thinks she must be dreaming. She doesn't push it any further than she thinks she can, and when he pulls away, she touches her forehead to his. ]
... Because I love you.
[ She looks at him, cupping his cheek with one hand. ]
I care about you. You're important to me, Dohalim. That's why I refuse to leave. It isn't because of my duty. If it were just that... I would not be here.
[ She can't lie to him. Mira's a terrible liar anyway, but-- she doesn't even want to try. How can she put it all into words? How can she explain the depth of her feelings for him, when they well up and threaten to overwhelm her?
Well. She wants to try. ]
... From the very beginning, you have been nothing but kind to me. You gave me a chance when I felt like I had nothing. You've trusted me to keep you safe. I have not-- I have never been trusted like that.
[ Her brother--he'd trusted her, yes. But not like this. ]
... You make me happy. [ She fights down the urge to hide her face. ] And when I think about the future, you are always there, next to me. Even if I am only your aide, then... it is enough for me. As long as I can stay by your side... I will be happy.
[Dohalim searches Mira's eyes once more, desperately trying to see if there was any lie to her words. he isn't sure why he wanted to find it; maybe he was scared of letting someone close to him again? he always did hurt the ones closest to him, after all... Mira is too precious, and it would devastate him if she got hurt again because of him.
but he still doesn't pull away. no, he leans in, pressing his forehead against her shoulder, before letting out a shuddering breath. he doesn't deserve any of this. he deserves a life of solitude for what he's done, he deserves to be alone for his transgressions he's committed.
and yet, the thought of being truly, utterly alone terrifies him even more, as he clings to Mira]
[ She holds onto him, because she knows what it's like to be scared. Mira tucks his head under her chin, a hand buried in his hair. Her other traces gentle patterns against his back. If he wants to let go, she'll be here to hold him together.
If not-- that's okay, too. ]
I'm here, [ she murmurs, holding him just a little tighter. ]
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instead, he reaches up to take Mira's shoulders, with every intention of pushing her away, but... he doesn't. no, instead, he pulls her closer to him, his hold almost desperate, as if she'll suddenly pull away]
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But then he pulls her close, and Mira lets out a small, relieved sound against his mouth. It's not her first kiss, but it's the first to make her feel like this. Dohalim's lips are soft and warm, and he holds her like if she pulls away, it'll break something in him. She doesn't pull away. She can't bring herself to. Instead, she slides her arms around his neck and relaxes against him, eyes sliding shut as she deepens it just a bit more. ]
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sliding his hands around to her back, Dohalim slowly leans back, gently pulling Mira along with him as he lays back down on his bed, careful not to break the kiss. he can feel her hair curtain his face, the short ends gently brushing against his face.
when they eventually do break, he looks up at her, breathing a little heavier as he tries to catch his breath]
...Why...
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... Because I love you.
[ She looks at him, cupping his cheek with one hand. ]
I care about you. You're important to me, Dohalim. That's why I refuse to leave. It isn't because of my duty. If it were just that... I would not be here.
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Why do you say that?
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Well. She wants to try. ]
... From the very beginning, you have been nothing but kind to me. You gave me a chance when I felt like I had nothing. You've trusted me to keep you safe. I have not-- I have never been trusted like that.
[ Her brother--he'd trusted her, yes. But not like this. ]
... You make me happy. [ She fights down the urge to hide her face. ] And when I think about the future, you are always there, next to me. Even if I am only your aide, then... it is enough for me. As long as I can stay by your side... I will be happy.
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but he still doesn't pull away. no, he leans in, pressing his forehead against her shoulder, before letting out a shuddering breath. he doesn't deserve any of this. he deserves a life of solitude for what he's done, he deserves to be alone for his transgressions he's committed.
and yet, the thought of being truly, utterly alone terrifies him even more, as he clings to Mira]
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If not-- that's okay, too. ]
I'm here, [ she murmurs, holding him just a little tighter. ]